FAREWELL RAINE Have a Good Life
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I know many of you out there often refer to the strength of my marriage. For a very
long time, I did as well. I had thought that as long as we faced things together, we
could face anything.
So did I.
I loathe divorce. I fear being alone. However, there are times that a father has to
be a father before he can be a husband. If the two roles are not compatible, it is
time to choose one or the other.
I will not bad-mouth Raine on here. Whether she believes it or not, I still, and
always will love her. She is a wonderful woman in so many ways. I asked her to
leave yesterday, and I already miss her. The house is not the same without her
here.
For the last few months I have wrestled with this, and worked hard so that this exact
thing would not happen. However, it became apparent that my duty to my kids must
take precedence over my love for Raine. I was their Dad before I was Raine's
husband. Raine's son Ian will be staying with me, as well.
There are only a few things that a marriage cannot survive. As I said, I will not bad
mouth her here. She has many great qualities. Someone out there will be lucky to
have her, and I hope their new life will be better than the one I was able to give her.
Raine, even with the cruel things you have said over the last few days, I still love
you. I know it is just your temper talking. You always were the greatest love of my
life. You know why this happened. I, like you, wish we could have worked it out. I
hope that some day your hurt and anger goes away and that you once again find
the love as great as the one we have shared. I doubt that I will, other than with my
kids. That has to be enough.
I will be alone now. While I think I have done the right thing for the sake of the kids,
I know that my life will be very empty without Raine at my side. There is a hole in my
heart now. No one will fill it quite the same way that Raine did.
Good bye Raine. Believe it or not, I will always love you.
Sponge
10/31/2005